Reflections of An Ex-Control Freak, Part II: Rain Drops!

*DING*

It finally hit me! The light bulb came on, the heavens have opened over my head....the Rain Drops poured!

So a few weeks ago, I confessed my Addiction to Control on this blog. (okay, calling it an addiction is weird but that's what it was.)

My name is Sophia & I'm a control freak. In unison now: Hello Sophia. (yeah, this is Addiction - of any kind - Anonymous.)

So anyway....here's how the revelation came, how I came to release my inhibitions in God's very capable, all knowing Hands. Something I thought was a good thing came to an uprupt - let's call it - pause, b/c the jury's still out on the verdict. Okay, this is usually how I operate when a God blesses me with a good thing. I take off running in my mind of what's next & how things will pan out. Wrong. I'm always wrong about my assumptions.

Continuing.....A second good thing comes along, I figure in my mind, 'oh, so this is why the first good thing over there is on pause b/c it was not meant to be. it served its brief purpose.' HA! Then I learn the second good thing is not as 'good' as I thought, and my mind jumps back to 'well the first good thing is still a possibility.'

Do you see what's going on here? I'm setting myself up for self-destruction. Mind you, my assumptions (b/c that's what they are, I'll admit it) are not prompted by revelation from God. It's all me! Trying to figure out GOD! Isn't that INSANE! Like really, figure out what God is going to do when His Thoughts are not my thoughts, His Ways are not my ways. He does exceeding & above ALL I can ask, do or think! He's the Almighty GOD, here! See where I'm going with this?! I cannot out smart the One that knows ALL, concerning me, you, my mama, your mama, our families, the WORLD.

Back to my revelation.....God appeased me. He was like, 'alright here's the purpose of the second good thing.' (PSA: God relates to me in this way. We just tight like that. Don't be jealous. Seriously Spend time with Him today!) And before He could finish. I said inwardly, 'I don't want to know, I don't want to know, God. I can't handle it.' By this time, my heart was beating fast in anticipation of what He would say. I was thinking is He going to say what I think He's going to say, am I going to like what He is going to say? O-D (over drive)

It was then I admitted I don't want to know. I Trust God. I really don't want to know. I trust Him to know He has my best interest at heart. He's not going to stray me, as I put my trust in Him and ALLOW Him to lead. He's got me. He's got US. We just have to trust.

My revelation is this. I thought I wanted to know the outcome. But the truth of the matter is I cannot handle knowing what the outcome will be. I believe that is why God reveals some things to us in one season and reveals other things in later seasons. We would mess it up if we knew what the outcome of certain areas of our lives will be. Think about it. We would try to accelerate the process to get to the results quicker or run away from the process b/c the results are not what we want.

That is why He's the ALL Knowing God. And I'm just Sophia. B/c He knows what I cannot handle. He will not put more on me than I can bear. And that's real.

My prayer is that this reached those who needed this most. Amen

Love. Peace & SOOOOOOOOUL ~ yeah, this was serious but i just had to end in humor.

I'm praying w/ you. He's got you. Believe It.

I may not know you but I love you enough to share my journey. Blessings : )

God Said 'No' For A Reason

And God Said "No"

I asked God to take away my pride.
And God said "No".
He said it was not for him to take away,
but for me to give it up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
And God said "No".
He said his spirit was whole,
his body was only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience.
And God said "No".
He said patience is a by-product of tribulations.
It isn't granted, it is earned.

I asked God to give me happiness.
And God said "No".
He said he gives me blessings, happiness is up to me.

I asked God to spare me pain.
And God said "No".
He said suffering draws you apart
from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.

I asked God to make my spirit grow.
And God said "No".
He said I must grow on my own.
But he will prune me to make me fruitful.
I asked for all things that I might enjoy life.

And God said "No".
He said I will give you life, that you may enjoy all things.

I asked God to help me LOVE others,
as much as he loves me.
And God said,
Ah, finally you have the idea.

~ Claudia Weisz ~

A good friend used the poem above to encourage me....I hope sharing this will bless you as much as it blessed me. Read it and then re-read it, applying your own situations, areas that you've asked God to help you in. Meditate on what God has given you the ability to change and the tools He's given you to conquer. Then pray this prayer....

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;

Courage to change the things I can;

And wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;

Enjoying one moment at a time;

Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;

Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it;

Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will;

That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him

Forever in the next.

Amen

Reinhold Niebuhr, The Serenity Prayer

Stay encouraged, Fam!

~~Be Blessed~~

Seek Purpose

The Lord woke me up early for this one....It's going to be good. Didn't plan what to write....

Purpose. What does it mean? To know what you were created for, how what lies within you will be used to impact the lives of others. That's Purpose. There is nothing wrong with books about purpose but I learned quickly they are not for ME. I tried reading a few books about it. I thought I would get revelation about MY purpose. But I could never get through them. How was this book going to tell me only what my Creator could reveal? It didn't come easy.

I had to seek God's face for it. Get His input, since He is the author & finisher of my life. He would know, right? ABSOLUTELY! It took ME some time because distraction comes easy. (Another lesson for a different time.)

He has a plan for your life! Whether you know it or just haven't accepted it yet. God created you, every detail about you, with PURPOSE. I encourage you to go to God, even if you haven't talked in a while, and find out from the SOURCE your purpose in life. I promise, your LIFE will never be the same.